let it be.

It’s that time of year again. Where I begin to list everything I am thankful for, here it goes…
My Jonas boys, I don’t think you will ever understand how much I love these boys or how important they will be to me. They saved my life. Once a Jonas fan always a Jonas fan. Forever will I go out of my way to see these boys and support them. This year I met Nick and I can honestly say that after almost 5 years of waiting for that hug it was well worth the wait. I also met Joe again, though I’m not the biggest fan of his new music, I am so proud of him. Someday I’ll meet Kevin and then I can die happily.
My gents from Honor Society, for the last two years y’all have kept sane. Seriously have had some of the most fun going to see y’all. I’m so incredibly proud each one of you. Thank you for doing what you do. Much love and Much duh. HS Crew forever!
The very adorable guys of Allstar Weekend; a fan for not even a year. But man have y’all made your mark on me. Crazy how I judged y’all from the start. But then I saw you perform live and that changed it all. You guys are incredible. Made my year to see y’all at Chain, my first actual ADUB concert. Thank you for making my birthday month what it was. Honestly will cherish those days for the rest of my life. Especially seeing Cam in a dress and having Zach hit me with a mic stand. Love y’all.
The sweetest dudes ever from Action Item, I don’t think I have ever met any nicer guys. You guys are the best. your music opened up something inside I had forgotten existed. You healed my broken heart. Can’t to see y’all again.
My wonderful cousin Fabiola, you are my best friend. The person I do absolutely everything with. I love you so much. I’m glad we like the bands we do. And I’m glad we are equally as insane. Thank you for being you. Never let the fangirl inside of you die. Then we’d have no life haha. Love you Fabs, I don’t think I’ll never not love you!
My best friends, Stephanie and Melissa, I love you two so much. I will never be able to show you how much I care for you. And how much I’m thankful that you two are in my life. Thank you for putting up with me. <3
Daniela and Catalina, I love your crazy asses so much. You never let me down. Dani as insane as you are, you remind me to be myself and that I can always count on you to make me smile. Thank you for being there for me. Cat, gosh I don’t think I will ever be able to thank you enough for always listening to me. You are and forever will be the greatest most beautiful person ever. I love you so much and thank you for everything.
My mom as much as she never fails to prove me right, if it weren’t for everything she does for me. I wouldn’t be me. And y’all wouldn’t have me here. She’s something else that woman, I love her.
My dad so thankful that he’s there for me to hear me when I can’t seem to bitch at anyone else. He seriously is the greatest Dad ever. And I’m so happy that he’s my dad. I love him so much.
My nina that woman goes out of her way for me. She’s like my second mom. I will forever her owe her so much. She’s the greatest thing to have ever happened to me.
Albert, Evelyn, Ramiro, Alexandria, Emerson and Eddie. Friends that for the last year have been so incredible to me. Thank you for being you. I love y’all. Thank you for the memories.
To anyone else who I missed. Thank you for putting up with my insanity and my fangirling. 2011 so far has been amazing. And I cannot wait until 2012.
By the way I’m thankful for this moment. Right now. Where I’m crying thinking of how much I take life for granted. Thinking of how much I miss my grandparents and others that aren’t here with me anymore. I’m thankful for the life that I am living. The job I found, the school I struggle with, and the future that is up ahead.
Thank you my wonderful gods for giving me this.
Thank you.
-V

So much happened!!
Getting my picture with Noyes.
Zach joining HWE on stage.
Zach apologizing for not wanting
to interrupt one of the bands performing.
(we had asked for a picture)
Zach remembering who I was.
AI making me tear up while performing Defenseless
Nathan getting up on that stage.
Zach making the shout out video for Rachel
Nate and Zach interchanging “I Love You”s
MB RTing my tweet
All these wonderful things;
my fangirl heart almost gave out.

Last night will be a night to remember. Forever.

-V

Tonight at the Roxy in Los Angeles, Ca, Action Item brought to us their first ever headlining tour, The Stronger The Love Tour! With opening acts including some dude who’s performance I missed, the awesome guys of Hollywood Ending, the beautiful Miss Katelyn Tarver, and these kids called Burnham (yea sorry I only like HWE and KT the other ones I wasn’t really diggin’) Well as the afternoon unfolded I was expecting to see familiar faces like Allstar Weekend guys and the Honor Society guys. Oh and of course Drake Bell who had tweeted AI that he was going. DB was there. I just never saw him.
Anyways here are a few pictures with some of my favorite people….

With Alex Noyes from Honor Society; when I saw him and Mike Bruno walk into the Roxy tonight I totally fangirled! I had this huge ass smile on my face! Sadly I didn’t get a picture with Mike but he did retweet/reply to me on twitter so that kinda made up for that! I cannot wait til Dec. 18th!!

With Zach Porter from Allstar Weekend; I kinda assumed/hoped he would be at the show today. And he was! When I got the picture we had a quick conversation, he asked me how I was like and I was like I’m good how are you and he’s like I’m good too; anyways he recognized me as the girl who he hit with mic stand!! My inner fangirl jumped for joy haha. We also talked about that for a bit too!


Let Me Start off by saying…THAT I STILL CANNOT BELIEVE I HAVE A PICTURE WITH NATHAN FREAKEN DARMONDY!! haha Serious shit, when he tweeted something about Hwood I was like, NO WAY he’s coming I just know it. And then he walked right pass me and Fabiola and I started hyperventilating when I saw his dreads! Seriously! I still can’t believe he was there.
By the way Fabiola recorded when he came over and said hi to Zach..again my inner fangirl was pretty happy/shocked.

Yep. Tonight was Pretty freaken amazing.
As you can tell I didn’t get any pictures with AI or the HWE guys because me and Fabiola left early; we were freaken starving!! Plus if we wouldn’t have left early we wouldn’t have gotten the picture with Nathan and a little video for a friend from Zach.
-V

Just checking in with anyone that cares haha.
I’m currently at my cousin Mallory’s house. Even though she isn’t here. The main reason I’m here is because I didn’t want to be home. My mom is gone for the weekend to see her husband at Tijuana.
Anyhow it’s Fabiola’s birthday!! She’s finally 18! Tonight we are gonna go to her house and have a little something! Which means jello shots and endless amount of mixed drinks! We do drinking at it’s best lol
By the way my first day of work was pretty cool. I was pretty much training the whole night. Shadowing these two guys for the first half. Then I shadowed my friend Ramiro. I still can’t believe we are gonna be coworkers! Pretty insane!
I can’t wait for tomorrow! I finally get to see Action Item! I’ve missed those guys so much! I haven’t seen them since the WYA tour, back in June! I’m super excited! Plus I get to see the dudes from Hollywood Ending! ~I also think that I’m more excited since I thought I wasn’t going to go…
Well enough of this rambling.
-V

My Name is Vanessa, I’m 19 years old. I’m a college student, a psychology major and a writer. I live in Los Angeles, well somewhere close to it. The following is a list of things about me.

-I go to school at the University of La Verne. Here in So Cal, and yes its in La Verne, google it. I used to live on campus last year as a freshman but it got to expensive so I’m back at home.
-I have a cousin who I do a lot of things with, her name is Fabiola. We spend most of our times on Twitter or on our phones talking to each other planning our next adventure. If its a concert or some kind of event we always find some way to be there. I have all the metro passes to prove it.
-I’m huge a huge fan of bands people hardly know and a fan of those three boys known as the Jonas Brothers.
~my love for Jonas is indescribable. a fan for years now, and no matter where they go in life from their careers to their personal lives I will forever be here supporting them.
~the bands I adore like crazy: Honor Society (sexy gentlemen who can make you want more after a few words just watch a video of MB and man you’ll want more ;)) Allstar Weekend (guys who sing what they want and do it so good with catchy little numbers..and plus have you seen their lead singer Zach I want to have his babies..) and Action Item (the sweetest guys I have ever met and their music is just good and precious. I’m so glad they’re in my life.)
-I have two brothers Omar (6 years younger) and Angel (3 years younger). and I have a younger sister Gelsey she’s 15 years younger than me and she’s like my child. I baby sit her on my days off from school and work and she’s not in preschool at the moment. These three people as annoying as they maybe make up my life on a daily basis so I’ll mention them a lot!
-My mom and dad are divorced so most of the time I’ll mention them on separate occasions. Also my mom is remarried so I’ll mention her husband as that never by name.
-I used to live in a house with my mom’s sister and her family. They annoyed me to death and I can’t stand any one of them. I only like my cousin Ashley, only because she has a mind of her own. Well only sometimes, the 12 year old has her moments.
-I call myself a writer, I’m working on a romance novel. I started writing it in 2009 and it isn’t finish yet. It’s going to get published through a self-publishing company so I’ve been trying to work on it for the longest time now but something always comes up.
-I’m single. For a few reasons but mainly because I haven’t found someone who actually wants to be with for me. Last (school) year I had many issues with boys they can be such douches they know who they are. So my love life is non existent.
-I’m friends with a man who used to be my history teacher in high school, his name is Mr. Ochoa. He’s very important in my life. That’s all you need to know.
-I have a handful of friends, they’re seriously the greatest friends a girl can ask for. ~My best friend Stephanie, is someone I admire and love dearly. She’s been there for me when others weren’t. I don’t know where my life would be without her. ~Melissa, who’s like my other half, is my daily texting friend. We talk about so much in one day that sometimes I forget everything we talk about. She’s also the only person I can talk to about tv shows, country music, and celebrity stuff all at the same time. One time in high school we used up a whole pad of sticky notes. Also she’s the person I text the moment Titanic comes on or we see something about it. ~There’s Catalina, she’s been my friend since 3rd grade I think, we’ve had our ups and downs but she’s always been there for me. She always hears me out and always lets me talk about myself so I can feel better. She’s my conscious. ~Lastly there’s Daniela, I haven’t known her for long but I keep her around just to laugh, just kidding. Dani is the person who I go to tell me what I should do when I know I shouldn’t. She’s the one that convinces me to do the insanity that I do. And even if she doesn’t I call her right after I do something I shouldn’t have. She’s also the person I talk about sex to like all the time.
-I have other friends of course who make up my life these last two years, (friends I know I need in my life) like my former roommate Alex, the guys Eddie, Emerson and Kenneth. Evelyn and Ramiro, though we don’t talk much, those two are my friends too. 
-Finally, know that I’m a Psychology major and I want to do something in that field. Not sure yet what I want to do. All I know is that I love listening to people and trying to help them out. If you ever need anything big or small I’m always here.
-Oh and I spend way too much time on Twitter so feel free to follow me. Haha.

I don’t think people read this but whatever.

XO<3

-V
*Edited on 11/11/11

I found out that Action Item was following me. They followed me yesterday and I found out today I totally got to excited haha! <3 
by the way i just realized Dan followed me and I thought he hadn’t so I @replied Anthony telling him he hadn’t oops haha
-V

Things seem pretty simple right now. At least for now they are. I’m single. My heart is healed. And all those boys are just memories of what I wanted.
Now I’m here thinking of someone not so new. Someone I know I can never have. Someone I wish I had in bed with me tonight.
I’m not sure what it is. But he’s clouding my thoughts. Taking up time of my empty days. He’s becoming something I want.
As much as I’m trying to avoid it. As hard as I don’t want to fall for anyone I’m afraid I might.
That asshole hurt me so bad and the other one who was helping turned out to be just as shitty.
I’m scared senseless about opening myself up to that pain.
I’ve been through so much in a year. I lost my first love, I got my heart broken, I was dumped, I got played bad. I got felt up countless times. I was pursued by a douche who just wanted action. I fucked up a possibly great friendship over my brainless actions. I fell for a boy I shouldn’t have.
And here I am, considering someone to take place in my recently stitched up heart.
What the hell am I thinking?!
Forget all this nonsense. Sticking to lonely ol’ me: reading & writing love stories, dreaming up crazy scenarios, singing my lungs out, dancing around by myself, baking sweets that I’ll stuff my face with, and most importantly just being me. Loving what I’m doing. Loving my friends. Loving the family I can stand. And trying super hard in school and looking for a job. Oh and of course going out of my way to see the guys of Honor Society, Action Item, Allstar Weekend, or a Jonas.
Yea. I’ll do what I find is best for me and continue to be my single self, without the pain & drama.
(See how fucken full of contradictions I am. Man things never change.)
PS: I need to finish my book by the end of November because it needs to get published already, I’m taking to long, need to get it done!
~If you actually read all this. Thank you. Though its cool if you didn’t. I don’t mind. This shit was way too long.
XO<3.
G’night
-V